Piege

i feel you, anyway
In every tear that i may shed
In every word i've never said...
-Schiller, 'i feel you'

Words are so unimportant...so hollow. Sometimes i feel this and i think i am the weirdest girl i know. i just can't grasp the fact that people don't know that talk is so cheap...and even if they are aware of this, why is everyone still talking?

And anyone would say that they feel the same
When you love someone like i loved you
i don't understand the way we are today 

It is that time of the night again...4am. i had a strange dream again and then i couldn't sleep. It has been happening a lot lately...and i cannot seem to interpret them. i hate don't like it. i don't understand this hour. Its sometimes my best friend and sometimes my worst enemy. 

Sometimes all the happiness seems so wrong, so hollow sometimes. i think of the sad times and they seem so real, the pain is so intense that i feel it was just yesterday. i don't think anybody starts off in life with sadness on their minds, they just slowly arrive at a sorrow station. Some catch the next train out while some never get out. 
i like to think that Akemi catches a train out of the sorrow station but comes back to spend some time at the place that was her home a while ago.



i think i miss some part of me that i lost long ago, but i just can't remember what...
i am tired of pretending, but all i remember is the humiliation


Sayonara :'(