cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you
I experience ego loss today...just by looking my tear stained face, nose running down my face, my hair around my face where i tugged at them screaming. i looked so ugly and if M ever saw me like this, i know he would run away. My ugliness seeps deeper, it is firmly interred in my soul and is sucking life out of me.
Beauty is skin deep but ugly is to the bones.
Sometimes reality seems like a nightmare where i am falling off a cliff...but then i cannot make it go away by pinching myself to senses. I can escape from this self created and nurtured hell, by saying that i am stupid. But then it is difficult for everyone believe that i let all this happen to me. And it has slowly dawned that sometimes walking through life with your eyes closed can make you fall into a pit, darkness where no one will rescue you.
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad
i have a job in the same English newspaper where i had screwed up my placement interview. Don't ask how i feel...i can feel no more than something bittersweet. My little pleasures in life like wearing what i like and then random photo sessions do not exist anymore. My life is not mine and i have abig doubt if i am who i think i am...
So i have decide that i am going to alienate myself to a point of a glorious death. i have not spoken to anyone and my only human contact are my office colleagues.
Sometimes it is difficult and i feel like crying, but i know this will lead me to astage of a glorious end...magical and angelic.
and you know I love you
I experience ego loss today...just by looking my tear stained face, nose running down my face, my hair around my face where i tugged at them screaming. i looked so ugly and if M ever saw me like this, i know he would run away. My ugliness seeps deeper, it is firmly interred in my soul and is sucking life out of me.
Beauty is skin deep but ugly is to the bones.
Sometimes reality seems like a nightmare where i am falling off a cliff...but then i cannot make it go away by pinching myself to senses. I can escape from this self created and nurtured hell, by saying that i am stupid. But then it is difficult for everyone believe that i let all this happen to me. And it has slowly dawned that sometimes walking through life with your eyes closed can make you fall into a pit, darkness where no one will rescue you.
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad
i have a job in the same English newspaper where i had screwed up my placement interview. Don't ask how i feel...i can feel no more than something bittersweet. My little pleasures in life like wearing what i like and then random photo sessions do not exist anymore. My life is not mine and i have abig doubt if i am who i think i am...
So i have decide that i am going to alienate myself to a point of a glorious death. i have not spoken to anyone and my only human contact are my office colleagues.
Sometimes it is difficult and i feel like crying, but i know this will lead me to astage of a glorious end...magical and angelic.
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| i am too pure for you or anyone. |
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| Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt I’ve watched you slowly winding down for years |
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