"What's the point of taking your life if you do not realise your potential."
- Sensei
i met my mentor aka Sensei (as he will be referred to here) and this is what he said...among other things which don't really matter much. It makes sense you know, going before making a mark will just be a tragedy not a loss. As i write this someone is talking about 'winter depression'...i love winters, i am not depressed then, just introspective.
A random thought in my mind: There are so many jobs that everyone would have made fun of before but now....maybe i am born way ahead of my time.
Christmas promises to be another obligation to fake happiness. Oh and some more development in the unnecessarily dramatic life of a shit magnet. Ran into a Ex-BEST FRIEND aka one of my real life Jenny (Duh! Don't you guys watch Gossip Girl). 'Jenny' ran so fast when she spotted me (she left skid marks) while i was just figuring out if it's her or not, cuz you see i am blind as a bat and too cool to wear glasses. Fancy that, cuz as i far as i remember it was 'Jenny' and her posse who bullied and outcasted me (spiteful comments and rumours included). Not that that i am very eager to get my back stabbed and gouged again or maybe she thought i would attack her or something. Sorry to deny you some violent action but Karma is what i believe in cuz the revenge gene is sorely lacking in my DNA.
i need the blessing of some holy.
i think it is time to honour the dead. i miss you so much every single second... So i plan to get a tattoo to have you with me forever you know cuz i may lose my mind and my memories someday. It will happen soon (if you have internet in heaven, i hope you read this or maybe ask God to tell you cuz i just realised you can't read.)
Well, i didn't know it would come to this
But that's what happens when you are on your own
And you're alright letting nice things go
- Lana Del Rey, Pawn Shop Blues
- Sensei
i met my mentor aka Sensei (as he will be referred to here) and this is what he said...among other things which don't really matter much. It makes sense you know, going before making a mark will just be a tragedy not a loss. As i write this someone is talking about 'winter depression'...i love winters, i am not depressed then, just introspective.
A random thought in my mind: There are so many jobs that everyone would have made fun of before but now....maybe i am born way ahead of my time.
Christmas promises to be another obligation to fake happiness. Oh and some more development in the unnecessarily dramatic life of a shit magnet. Ran into a Ex-BEST FRIEND aka one of my real life Jenny (Duh! Don't you guys watch Gossip Girl). 'Jenny' ran so fast when she spotted me (she left skid marks) while i was just figuring out if it's her or not, cuz you see i am blind as a bat and too cool to wear glasses. Fancy that, cuz as i far as i remember it was 'Jenny' and her posse who bullied and outcasted me (spiteful comments and rumours included). Not that that i am very eager to get my back stabbed and gouged again or maybe she thought i would attack her or something. Sorry to deny you some violent action but Karma is what i believe in cuz the revenge gene is sorely lacking in my DNA.
i need the blessing of some holy.
i think it is time to honour the dead. i miss you so much every single second... So i plan to get a tattoo to have you with me forever you know cuz i may lose my mind and my memories someday. It will happen soon (if you have internet in heaven, i hope you read this or maybe ask God to tell you cuz i just realised you can't read.)
Well, i didn't know it would come to this
But that's what happens when you are on your own
And you're alright letting nice things go
- Lana Del Rey, Pawn Shop Blues
Sayonara
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What is the point of taking your life? None. What is the point of living your life? None. But a point will make both the actions easy.
ReplyDeleteP.S. Your blog might be penniless but it brings a smile on my face. It's good to be aware of ones kindred.