Shower thoughts of grotesque

My most recent shower-thought is that we, as humans, know so much about ourselves now that we ever did before. 

It's kinda cool because i think it allows us to carefully plan our life...but then of course, God laughs.

For instance, my period tracking app, Flo, tells me all about my symptoms in advance so that I can be mindful. Like today, I'll be able to work out harder but would have to be wary of "reward-seeking behaviour" in social settings. My astrologer tells me about my week, month and even year. This week I'm fated to be melancholic, unlucky and highly likely to fall into "bad company."

Speaking of bad company, i am actively trying to ghost a 'friend'. i have known her for over a decade but we were never really each other's inner circle, at least back home. So, i'm a little surprised when she started introducing me as her BFF in the new country. Friends and lovers are hardly perfect...you have to find the one whose imperfections align with yours.

In this case, her social-climbing and boy-crazy behaviour (recently-acquired) gives me major ick.

For long, i blamed the societal (and biological) pressure on women to find a mate as the reason behind her new persona. Now, after a deep discussion with Mandem, i am inclined to believe that that isn't entirely the case. She's always been like this, i just wasn't around much to witness it. Mandem said that he's noticed that I'm not cheerful or relaxed wherever i return from meeting her unlike my hang out sessions with my other girlfriends.

That's some astute observation since i didn't notice how i was feeling because i was busy suppressing my icks.

Oh well! Quality over quantity is a good deal any day. I'd rather have just two really good girlfriends than an Insta-aesthic girl gang. 

In any case, this friendship was bound to end, given our starkly opposite views on life.

i have never hidden the fact that i have nothing in common with people who choose to or aspire to procreate.

Just like my favourite poem mentioned in the previous post, they've chosen the path I would never want to walk.

It's neither good nor bad, it's just that this is my opinion. People should be allowed to have personal preferences if they aren't harming anyone. I simply have nothing in common with them after they volunteer to raise a child. Simply put, i don't want to be around that energy.

While my views on this issue has led me to alienate a lot of my friends and family, i truly believe it's for the greater happiness. Everyone should aspire to live what's best for them. 

Sayonara